Journal Prompt

 When did I lose my innocence? How have I treated myself since? 

I think I lost my innocence when I found porn on my dads computer. I definitely should not have seen that. When I reflect back on it, I am struck by the emotions I felt towards my father. I was disgusted, upset, and I don't think I have looked at him the same since. I was like 12. 

The impact that had on me was probably significant, but I cannot remember a time where I thought any lower of myself than around that age. It probably hurt. Since that age, I have gained confidence and empowerment. 


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